さみだれ

 Today is Monday.

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Only 295 more days until the December holidays. Hurry up already.

Recently, I've been dreaming out ways to get out of school. I think it's a bit meaningless sometimes.

Life is so short , and yet we spent at least a dozen years in school. That's like more than ten years of our small, pitiful, insignificant, pathetic life, wasted and thrown away.

And it's not like we actually learn anything valuable at the end of the day.

Sure, we become literate. But what's the point in being literate when human beings live their lives as empty shell, devoid of anything?

In our youth, we wake up in the morning, we go to school, we come home in the afternoon, we got to sleep at night.

When we get older, we wake up in the morning, we go to work, we come home in the evening, we go to sleep at night.

And every single day, for every week, and month, and years, we continue to do the same thing, over, and over, and over again. Without stopping, like mechanism programmed permanently into a specific task.

And then there are the emotions. We laugh, we cry, we smile and we frown. Some people hate, some people love. And even though we can't tell the exact emotions that we will experience, everything becomes really predictable, because it's either this or that. There are no surprises, no meaning. Do we exist solely to "enjoy" such emotions?

See how mundane and meaningless our soporific lives are?

But then we still continue to live anyway, struggling like ants against the roaring tidal waves of fate and time as the storm rages on. Sometimes, it's like we don't even bother struggling, and so, we let ourselves get washed away, and we flow down the rivers, blindly following where the tides will us to.



Why am I talking about this? Well, I just wanted to get out of doing homework or any actual studying.

 Recently, I've been getting a couple of spam comments. All those spam links are porn sites. Seriously, WTF?It's Japanese porn, but that's beside the point.

The point is that I'm getting (porn) spam! The Hell!?

I think I should perhaps change blog servers? But I hate blogspot and wordpress is a bit boring. Ah, so picky.

 I just painted my room this afternoon, and seriously, it's awesome. The wall's super smooth and it looks real clean!

The paint smell is still hanging around though, and it bugs me. I've been smelling nothing but paint fumes the whole day, yeah? I also repainted the living room walls and touched up the ceilings. Honestly, it's really tiring and the most amount of work I've done in years. But like they say, don't do things if you're only going to do it halfheartedly, yeah?

I think I could help people paint their rooms! 1 wall $10 - $15 sounds good, no? So if anyone needs their room repainted, I could do the work! Ah~

I also realize that the paint smell kinda has the new house smell. So now my room probably smells pretty new, despite my desk being a LITTLE messy. (Ah, homework.)

The new facebook layout really sucks.

Sa te, ja!

-Owari-

 tag replies;

Mandii, yup! I guess they're really open! She was really good looking though. Now, if I were a guy....
Tjiaying, Can't, I need the subject for L1R5. I'm trying to push for another subject, so if I can get it then I'll go for Chinese B.

Tomorrow is wednesday! Time passes to slowly in school, so quickly when I go home. ):
I think I want to go to the library more often, so I can constantly have a book with me to tide through the more... boring lessons in school. Like you-know-what.

I wish holidays would come quickly. Bahhh.

 When I was a kid, I remember reading somewhere that when you confess your sins crimes, you'll feel better.

Well, today, I confessed to my father that I skipped school today. (BECAUSE I WAS LATE. AND THE CLASS WOULD KILL ME IF I CAUSED THEM TO HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL 2 HOURS EARLY ON MONDAY)

To tell you the truth, that thing about confess makes you feel better? That is a damn bloody lie. I feel horrible.

I should have done this the ol' not-a-good-kid-way.


Now, I'm gonna to go fmylife.com and look at other people's miseries to feel better. Yeah. I'm a lousy human being. :/

 This morning, I saw a flasher.

:/

Put some clothes on, damnit.

 Homework, homework, Test, homework, test, homework, homework, test.


I hate Chinese.

I also hate the V. Principal because he bloody refuses to let me take another subject to make up for my Chinese.

I think it's an epic "WIN" because there's no freaking way I can get a damn good score on Chinese by the end of this year. Too much effort.

And it's not just about effort. It's freaking not worth it at all.

And have you seen the amount of homework the teachers give? How the hell can i find the time to do my homework AND revise for tests AND study the demon spawn that is Chinese!?

The hell, why can't I do something easier? Like history, or literature, or anything that is NOT Chinese!?

I think hopes of JC should be completely crushed now?


Bah. I don't want to go to school tomorrow. I feel sick.


I should probably opt for Private Candidate instead? It's not worth it like that, right?


Deep sigh.

 Homework!? What homework!?


School is boring. :/ Especially when you can't even sleep in class! Bah, mother please save me. ):

And then they give you a whole mountain of homework! I don't even get time to enjoy myself anymore!

No enjoyment = Build up of stress = Alopecia!

):

HAH? WHAT DO YOU MEAN I'M SUPER UNSTRESSED!? ):

Heeeeeyyy I wanna play. ):

 Just now when I decided to do my usual cloud gazing, I found the moon staring back at me. Yes, smack at 3pm plus in the afternoon.

I know it's totally logical but still, it's kinda beautiful, ja?



Nontheless, I think that this year I want to save up money, to satisfy the totally loud and noisy inner-otaku. I know, I say that every year, but...

Yare yare.

 read the fucking rules before you get too excited and get carried away.

So anyway I waited two whole bloody weeks for my Debit card to come in, and it finally did yesterday. So I was all hyper and excited about it, and I went straight to the ATM machine after lunch today to get it activated.

But I didn't READ THE DAMN RULES, and i inserted the card in. I was only supposed to do that if I already had an ATM card, or if I mailed them the acknowledgment slip. *face palm no jutsu*

So now the LONG AWAITED CARD HAS BEEN RETAINED BY THE MACHINE AND I WOULD HAVE TO GO DOWN TO THE BANK TO SORT IT OUT AGAIN AND THEN WAIT AGAIN. ):

Stupid dickless rules invented by stupid dickless people. :/


Anyway, after the whole sad fiasco (Which I'm super not telling my dad since it's my own damn fault), I went back to school with Shalreen to meet the POA teacher to go Ikea.

Yeah, lol, right?

I'm super tired now! I hope tomorrow will end quickly so I can go fix up my problem with the bank and get the card back in time before my pops finds out. ):

*DAD, I HOPE YOU'RE READING THIS BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE THE GUTS TO TELL IT TO YOU. KAYTHANKSBYE*